i'm a subtext. are you game for it?

2009-06-18T12:49:00.001-07:00

i'm happily attached to you. :)

a moment of time

2009-05-19T02:27:00.000-07:00

There are times I just can't help it but feel so alone.
No number of people around me can fill up that space.
It's been around for 4 years?
i guess everyone deserves to be loved,
maybe not me.

maybe it's not the right time,
maybe it's not the right person,
maybe fate didn't factor this in,
maybe it's the circle of friends,
maybe i'm just not trying,

too many maybes.
i'm tired of listening to all these...
i'm really having the time of my life here in Melbourne, yet...

when will there be ( ) who will always be there for me.
i'm trying to learn to be contented. Learn to be emotionally independent.
i'm selfish. i fear that i will have to be on my own in future.
Dun be deceived by that confident facade,
if theres one thing that i fear most in this world; it's emptiness.
that abstract space that innocently sits in the corner,
yet it's deafening silence is enough to kill.
you must be thinking that i shouldn't be over-thinking stuff.
i agree. i dislike myslef for being like that too.
But i'm human.
i guess i'm my best source of consolation.

dancing under the melbourne sky

2009-02-19T03:52:00.000-08:00

It's 10.54 pm now. I'm exactly 3 hrs ahead of sg and im still trying to adjust myself cos time seems to past much faster over here. Yes people, it's my 3rd day in Melbourne. Other than the fact that i was desperately homesick on the first 2 days, things are getting slightly better as i get to meet more people and adapt to the local culture. As far as it goes, everyone has been pretty warm towards us :). I guess this is somethg we asians shld pick up on.

I was really caught up with lots of daily activities minus the fact that i still have to cook, wash, pack and do grocery shopping (with alicia.darling of cos). We sound like housewives-to-be huh? Honestly, it hasn't been v.easy but it grants me a sense of satisfaction that I'm capable of surviving on my own as well.

I wanna dedicate a BIG THANK YOU to all of my dearest friendsss who turned up at the airpot to show some moral support. I miss each n everyone of you.

In no particular order:
Lynn, Joanne, Xin Lan, Yat Chun, Sua Cheo, Kingsley, Huey Shyan, Joyce.dear, Ber.fairy, Shin yi, Meizi, Tong Pui, Benedict, pq.dar, xue ting, Yin ting, Jennifer, gugu and last but most importantly my family!

sorry for being sucha crybaby at the departure hall..i guess i cldnt help it since im so attached to u guys. haa. oh well. do me the favour of taking good care of yourselves aight my lovely frens. I can't wait to be back in your arms again. haha.

Oh. I'm really touched by the farewell cards u guys wrote/ made and the presents such as the recipe bk from lan n joanne, notebk from meizi, postcard from shin yi and the ultra-prettyyyy BABY PINK GUESS WATCH! It was really a surprise. I'll def. wear it in remembrance of u guys. love it. <3

Meanwhile i'll turn in soon. I'll prob be back this wkend with all the pics that i have accumulated since my departure. im absolutely burnt out now and theres a FUN DAY OUT event tmr where we will be travelling to another campus. My heart's with you all wherever i am. :)

happymoomooyear

2009-02-06T06:13:00.000-08:00

Happy cny to ya all! :) Did you guys enjoy yourself? well i sure did...

First, i apologise for failing to keep to my promise to blog regularly. I have been too caught up during this festive season and i admit the lack of motivation to blog is also sitting in. Currently, i'm bearing a BIG headache over the packing of the damn luggage. Any tips to offer? oh n yes, I'm leaving on the 16th feb @ 9pm.

Well the past mth has been eventful. Met up with my cranky-counterpart, b1 dearest, for some gf-loving, tea at my all-time-fav bakerzinn, night stroll, shopping, cam-whoring n of cos yummy food. Needless to say, the picnic at Marina Barrage with lynny n alicia.darling was simply fantabulous too! The weather was perfect (minus my sunburn), the food was finger-licking gd n the company - awesome! yeehaw~ We really live up to our names for being able to bitch non-stop abt anything under the sun. haha.

I will let the pics do the talking aight. These few shots were randomly picked out of the lot. The full album has been uploaded onto my fb eons ago. see how slow am i with this.

Our geeky-day-out. Haha. Thanks to b1's $2 specs from daiso...we had a hell lot of fun 'experimenting' it! Pardon us for the retarded-ness. lol.

checking her out. HAHHAA. There, stop imagining peeps. :P

It's been 3 years and counting. They say opposites attract and i'm really glad i've found you. Once again, b1, thank you for being sucha great friend all this while and accepting me for who i really am. :) With all honesty, I didn't expect this friendship to blossom over the yrs ever since our first meeting during the dfs days. Love ya! As promised, i'll be camping by msn n keep u updated with the latest juicy stuff. lol. Await your bday prezzie frm aussieland. <3>

Our lovely picnic at marina barrage...

We had home-made mayo-less sandwiches, doritos with salsa, fruit salad, cookies n 'heated-up' jolly shandy! mMMmm..yum yum yum :)

lynnlynnlynn, we r so gonna miss you loads!

DARLING this is specially DEDICATED to you. hahaha. It's suppose to be an artistic shot. (Hint: reflection)

when i look at this picture..this is what that comes into my head.

[L] is for the way you look at me,

[O] is for the only one I see,

[V] is very, very extraordinary

[E] is even more than anyone that you adore

This is what sisterhood is all about...i love my gfs! 'A' yo! This is our stylee. hahaha.
Alrite, next wk's gonna be fully pack again. :)

To blog-haters, thanks for making the effort. One advice for you is to deal with your screwed up lives first before poking your nose into another's business. I have noted your IP add and im absolutely well-aware of who u r. Well, the police post is just around the corner. For the last time, I say dun dare me. I dun owe anyone any explanation so dun act like u know me. I suggest you introduce the definition of KARMA into your empty vessel as well.

2009-01-20T03:30:00.000-08:00

i want to get married!!

:*)

yes you didn't hear me wrongly

brb to tell you guys more.

haha.

-updating in progress-

b1b2 geeky outing n picnic with the bitchy souls!

dramamama wayang

2009-01-16T05:40:00.000-08:00

I know I have been MIA-ing for quite awhile. All thanks to 2 BIG reasons which kickstarts my dramatic 2009.

1.) Daddy dearest was admitted to cgh last week and I decided to cancel all activities just to spend more time with him. I shall save you the details but thanks for your concern my friends. you know who you are. Hes doing well now.

2.) I'm also busy gan-chionging over the various paperwork (which i swear i so hate) to transfer to on-campus. Well, the clock's ticking faster than i realise and i'm exactly a month away from bidding sg gdbye. As much as I grumble and whineeee about how homesick i MAY become; i can no longer contain the excitement in me esp after attending the pre-departure briefing @ Furama Hotel. Everybody says it's gonna be FUN! really?

Sometimes i wish i had the superpower to fast track time to the end of 2009 so as to know what will become of me. Am i alone at this or do anyone share the same sentiments? lol.

Will i enjoy life in Melbourne and adapt to the pace of their on-campus teaching?
Will i be able to meet new people who will make a difference (+ve) in my life?
Will i come back a better person after graduation?
Will i get a good job in the PR line by then?
Will i be able to live up to my own expectations?
Will i settle down in the next 4-5 yrs to come?
Will there only be a me; or theres a you too?
and the list goes on.

I always rant that theres so many things to do yet too little time. It doesn't help that cny is just around the corner. Somehow i dun feel perk-up at all. Believe it or not. Nothing really excites me easily these days except for the coming trip. I'm so dead. This is a premonition that i'm gonna be reduced to a drive-less salted fish.

oh well, theres so much to catch-up with all of you too. Tentatively for next wk, im bked for medical check-up for the student visa, b1-loving and a picnic with the 'sex in the city' Monash gang at Marina Barrage. haa. They shld know how this label evolved.

As you can tell, i'm too bored for my own good; but it gives me the much-needed space to reflect and do what i want.

2009-01-06T04:38:00.000-08:00

daddy, my heart's with you.
you'll always be in my prayers.
may god bless you a speedy recovery,
i'll do anything in exchange for your health.
to the most important person in my life
i love you.

2009-01-05T08:07:00.000-08:00

maybe it's true that promises were meant to be broken.

and i took a lil peek in that box that has long expired ever since.

that dusty thing. you / me.

the familiar playground, the quiet overhead bridge, the room, the cheesy movie,

the breakwaters, the neverending bus rides, the pool,

the 3 stalks of crimson rose. withered.

the first hello. the last goodbye.

my pursed lips cracked into a smile when i read this. once again.

"i do not love you for who you are.

i love you for who i am when i'm with you"

silly n cliche shitz. but it was love-ed.

well, take a nostalgic break to have a sober moment (fz, 2009).

adieu '08, HOLA 2009!

2008-12-31T20:06:00.000-08:00

2008 has been quite a fruitful and memorable year for me.

Stepping into adulthood wasn't merely about elaborate celebrations, freedom and authority.

It also brought along new responsibilities and expectations (both from myself and others).

Standing at 21, i can safely say that i'm still in the process of maturing to be a full-bloom adult.

Like i always lament, time really flies. It really does.

I never knew that my parents have aged tremendously over the years until I had the time to sit down over dinner this holiday and notice the additional wrinkle or grey hair on them.

Sometimes i wonder how much more time do we have together?

Why am i still taking them for granted?

How can i contribute to make the family more loving and peaceful?

Despite the frequent arguments and cold wars, it's needless to emphasize that they remain the centre of my life.

Behind this facade, my greatest fear has always been the fear of losing any of them one day, because i know that the day will def. come, just sooner or later.

Therefore, Thank you papa and mummy for giving me life, for your infinite love, for putting up with my nonsense, for giving me the best of everything, for bringing me up to who i am today. I'm nothing without any of you.

In the course of two-oh-eight, i have also forged priceless friendships. I believe time is the true test of all kinds of relationships and i'm proud to say tat i have weaved strong ones in which i am v.certain the i will keep for life.You guys know who you are yeah :) Thank you my friends for your love and for never failing to be there for me. I'm truly blessed because of you people who are so close to my heart.

I bid farewell to some who i have unintentionally hurt and i sincerely hope that you will move on with something/someone better.

With that, i wanna bid 2008 goodbye and i know that 2009 is my year to continue to shine.

I strive to excel in every aspect of my life and most importantly to graduate smoothly and embark on my career. :*)

The bottomline of my 2009 resolution?

I wanna be a better person, a better daughter and a better friend. I hope to have the courage to step out of my comfort zone and make a difference to other people's lives.

I look forward to another splendid year with less war, less epidemics, better economy, more peace, love and happiness in this world. Most importantly, i wish for good health for my parents and the neverending moo-lahs. haha.

Happy two-oh-nine to all of you.

May the people i love be blessed with the goodness of life :)

With love,
fz

O' make merry with my favs :*)

2008-12-29T19:46:00.000-08:00

The most important people of my life :)

Xmas this yr was a pretty simple affair for me. The eve was spent over a warm and cosy dinner, Twilight and yummylicious supper at Katong Hong kong cafe with my dearies.

Similar to past yrs, it's a tradition for all of us to don xmas hats, stroll down the crowded streets, hum xmas carols and make merry. I guess the only difference this yr is the unforgiving rain that serves to dampen the mood a lil. All we wish is for a white xmas and here comes a wet one. brr. Here we go, splurging on a 8-course dinner at Tao's restuarant in Paradiz Centre. We sure know how to pamper oursleves. haha.

It was our first visit except for jc. I thought the appetizers and starters tasted much better than the main course itself. I had lamb cutlets which fell way below expectations (considering that it was recommended) and the dessert (poached pear) was simply pathetic except for the creme bulee that the rest ordered.

oh well, i guess i might return in future just for their lunch menu...or maybe not? unless they start serving only starters without the obligation of having a set meal.

Everyone's fav. hangout. The washroom. HAHA. After looking thru the pics, i realised that this is the ONLY 'decent' shot i have of pq (peeks behind). oh my. -_-

fairies. :)

where Narcissism reigns..haa. This excludes poor jc.dear who wasnt really in the xmas mood due to her eye infection. I hope you're recovering well yeah? :)

At the lobby @ PS. Waiting for jc and pq to be done with their business b4 heading off to The Cathay.
Supper after Twilight to satisfy my porridge craving. hee.
I must say that admist the bad reviews by movie critics and those who have read the novel, this movie has successfully capture my heart and needless to say, im extremely besotted by Edward Cullen who exudes such charm and masculinity.
awww.. if only he exist in reality, i am 100% willing to turn a vampire for him. LOL.
-day dreams-

jc back in the mood for some cam-whoring. lol.
After reviewing each shot, we kept wondering why the hell our faces look so oily??!!
hmnn..i guess it must be the erratic weather.
duncha love these hats??
Initially, i was pretty reluctant to purchase one because it cost $5 BUT only 50 cents is going to singhealth.
oh well, it's a business gimmick instead of charity i say.
We still bought one each, it's gonna be our xmas 'uniform'/headress for the many yrs to come. :P

Xmas
was spent with alicia.darling in Orchard and at Tetsu. Amanda (her sis) got me a cute coin pouch from Japan! hehe. i love the color! so sweet of her rite? hehe. Darling made a really pretty handphone accessory for me since she knows that i love customize stuff and most importantly it's in my fav. pink and purple in bling bling crystals. haha. It's so pretttyyy! i can't stop going ga-ga over it. I actually thought that she bought it from somewhere. LOL.

Thank you darling, i dun hafta say much but im sure you know how much you mean to me :)
it's our 3rd xmas together...hahahaha.
like we always say, if only one of us is a guy, we wld have been happily married already.
HAHAHAHHAHA.
If you reader do not know yet, the endless chemistry and telepathy is somethg that really bond this priceless friendship together.
:*)

My latest addiction!
After reading the raves on CLEO about this attas-looking authentic japanese resturant, darling suggested for us to have our xmas dindin there. All I can say is that Tetsu is
superb.
Ambience: 4.5/5
Service: 5/5
Food: 5/5
Price: 4/5 (subjective, but reasonable to us)
For fussypots like us, we seriously have got NOTHING to complain about this restuarant. It's located on the 2nd level at Tanglin Mall and i highly recommend that anyone who loves jap food MUST make your first visit there and i'm extremely sure you will return for more.
It's absolutely gonna be my fav.hangout soon.
I had rather pay more to dine here as compared to Sakae sushi and whatsnot. Okie, Ichiban sushi (Esplanade) and sushi tei are still acceptable on low-budget days. haa.

Now, i'll let the pics do the talking although i feel that it doesn't do much justice if you dun personally taste it. Embrace yourself for some drooling time! :P

i love the interior design of Tetsu. Extremely elegant, classy, romantic yada yada... All my fav. adjectives can be put to use here. haha.

See? now you know what im talking about. teeheehee.
We shared a festive set meal and here you go!

Our starter.
i can't remember the exact names so i shall roughly cook up the description k?
from left to right: chilled deep-fried tempura salmon/swordfish, half-done fish ( i forgot it's name, is it red snapper?) soaked in sweet tangy sauce and smooth cold tofu drizzled in a dressing thats garnished with century egg. This made every spoonful heavenly (fyi, it's our fav appetizer).

California roll.

It looks pretty normal eh? Trust me, try putting one piece into your mouth and it will tell the whole story. Maybe it's the rice, maybe it's the chef's skill, just maybe..we can't tell why it taste so special as compared to the normal sushi you find at cheap eateries. hmmn.

my fav.hotpot that can send me to paradise! yum yum yum.

We agree that codfish taste better than salmon afterall.

Interesting?

Guess what's this for?

No, it does not contain a genie that will grant you 3 wishes. haha.

Tempura prawns and katsu thats deep-fried till light golden-brown! It's crispy on the outside and juicy inside. woolala. The tangy sauce that is lightly stirred in grounded peanuts reminds me of those in Mai-Mason. Not forgetting the savoury garlic rice thats only second to my dad's creation. :)

Right up to the Dessert, it was still perfect! Presenting to you, Tetsu's very own in-house sesame-flavoured ice cream. WEEEEE. Just the right thing to end the meal on a high note. haha.

Need i emphasize more on how much we LOVE the food there? :)

This is us goofy-ing away as usual. haha. only these few pathetic shots and those ta-glam ones that alicia.darling tagged. ROARR. According to her (which i agree), i looked really chui that day...pale-looking (not as if i'm not white/fair enough) and all.

All thanks to the accumulative late nites out and being consecuetively caught in the rain..i was officially sick on xmas itself. I woke up to a pretty bad sorethroat, block nose n i will spare you the rest of the details.

I still remember the first thing i said when i met alicia was "Merry Xmas." (with the most insincere tone ever and a stupid black face).

HAHAHHAA. forgive me lah okokok.

oh yah, darling was holding onto the magazine (nu ren wo zui da) and she says i really resemble selina from s.h.e. maybe it's the extreme girliness? haha. okie, loyal s.h.e fanatics pls dun kill me. it's just a comment. :P

blurry effect. haha. The truth behind this shaky shot is that we were busy giggling away when we were 'caught red-handed' by the waiter (who was standing at his counter which was just opposite our table) while doing those monkey-faces. LOL.

i guess this is a common situation. haha.
whats xmas without a xmas tree? but this one's fairly okie. i have seen nicer ones. My fav. this yr has gotta be the crystal one at bugis which is sponsored by Lee Hwa jewellery. :)

yes an extremely chui-looking me. i have decided to put up this pic all becos of the reindeer which truly outshines me here. HAHA.

On the 26th, Boxing Day,

it was spent with my precious jie meis (xin lan, joanne) and yc. To my horror, i only realised when i got hm that we did not take any pics at all!!! :( I guess we must be too engrossed in catching-up with each other's lives. And no people, im not getting married yet. Stop wishing n looking

forward to it. HAHAHAHA -_-

We had a lovely picnic at The Botanical Gardens on a lazy afternoon. I was fashionably late as usual. heh. It has been eons since i last visited this place. The weather, scenery, food and great company adds to the list of memorable outings we have together. :)

Soon after, we headed to chill out at Coffee Club in taka and then to Condom Fantasy since both lan n joanne have yet to explore it b4. haha.

Nothing interesting..just the usual stuff...except for the fact that the shopkeepers there can't seem to be able to keep their eyes off you and this makes it a lil uncomfortable. ah whatever, i dun give a damn.

I just wanna tell you guys that i feel extremely blessed that after so many yrs, we still have each other :). Sometimes i wonder how magical friendships can be. Despite the fact that we do not share a common interest, we are not studying in the same unis, we have gatherings only once or twice annually and we have different personalities; it's really fated for us to cross paths and maintain it till now. thank you for always being there for me.

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On Sunday, i brought my family to Dian Xiao Er at T3 to try the Angelica Herb quack quack quack. haha. Im so glad that they love it! My parents also ordered 2 ducks for the coming cny. lol. now tell me how cute is that.

After that, we headed over to the Marina Barrage. I have been telling them about it ever since mr.ck drove me there last tues. haha. The view was splendid! :*)

Thru rain and shine; they have always been my main source of security.

The adorable lil boats that ck 'threatened' to sell me off in. HAHA.

ooo. just look at the pretty neon lights.

Anything with colors like that is sufficient to make my heart flutter. haha.

Alrite..thats all for now.

If you have read till here, i sincerely thank you for your patience for going thru this long post with me. haha. For now, i'm trying to churn up my new year resolution (1 more day) and hopefully make it short and sweet. lol.

To you (if ya reading this): i'm sorry.

2008-12-29T07:32:00.001-08:00

i think i have MIA-ed for quite awhile. brb for the xmas eve, xmas, boxing day n family outings update soon.

i'm trying v.hard to motivate myself to upload all the pics asap and then i realised that i am 2 days away from 2009. Ahhh. Alrite, and i will be back for the end-of-the-year-tradition-so-you-say --> my new year resolution 2009.

on a side note, i'm overwhelmed with my newly acquired loots... a v.pretty n girly
Guess heart shape charm bracelet watch that i got for half price where the original was 300 plus and a pair of Steve Madden knee-high Boots thats made out of soft calf leather. oohlala.

I dun care what you say, but retail theraphy does make me happy. i'm v.sure i'm not the only one who feels so..come'on lets just admit it. :)

2008-12-20T20:38:00.000-08:00

I realised that there are certain things or people in our lives that we choose to forget and human beings choose to retain only the things they want to.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S of the zoooo

2008-12-18T00:05:00.000-08:00

woohoo!! i have survived the zoo and am back in one-piece. LOL.
This excludes the fact that i am currently nursing a terrible backache. argh.

i can no longer live in denial. I realised that i can't catch up with their pace anymore. -sulks-

Oh well. The weather was perfect for a pre-xmas excursion like this.

hehe. one thing for sure, i think the kids had really enjoyed themselves.

It's really amazing to know how they can memorise the various enclosures and the names of the animals by heart. OMG.

E.g: They can tell me that the name of the polar bear is called Inuka. Gosh.

Anyway, special thanks to ber.fairy for her company n i'm sure the kids love her too. :*)

of cos, we had our own share of fun and not forgetting ah tes who never fails to entertain us with her dirty jokes and staring at the baboons whatsnot.

hahaha. arhuh. arhuh. it must be the mating the season

Here are some of my fav.shots! :)
The rest are already on my fb.
There are 2 full albums of pretty pics, get clicking n enjoy!

We had a home-cooked fine dining at my cousin's place on tues. The brocolli cream soup, grilled salmon with smoked prawns simmered in white-wine cream sauce and Australian leek were simply orgasmic!! Not kidding you.

The fillet is tender and succulent; it melts in your mouth like nv b4.

awww.

a pity i was too hungry to take any pics of it.

with my sweet 7 yr-old niece, Samantha. Shes really sharp and witty. Ber also commented that we look alike. do we? is it the hairstyle or what?

Noticed the white/violet scarf around my neck?
It's a v.special gift from vanessa (as seen below). This is the 1st scarf she has knitted her entire life! I felt really touched and surprised! Although it isn't perfect, but it's easily one of the most sentimental presents i have ever received. She said that she wanted to give it to someone she could trust and is really close to her heart.
awwww. sucha sweetie :*)
i will def. bring it to aussie and make sure it returns with me in one-piece yeah.

On wed: the usual shot -at the entrance of the zoo. lol

we are all enthu and prepared to conquer the place. HAHA.

Fairies unite! :) It wld'nt be the same without her presence.

Just look at our stun expressions. We were really afraid that the parrots behind decide to launch an attack on us anytime. HAHA. The zookeeper was super hilarious. She kept telling us to remain calm because we look real nervous in the pics. LOL.

-drumrolls- LOL. The infamous shot of the day. you go figure out yourself ok? :P

A group shot right infront of the flamingo enclosure. It was taken by this v.nice ah pek. haha.

with my cutie.pie whos a lil grumpy at times but adorable 80% of the time. The kids really do respect me. If any argument arises among themselves, i just need to give them a 'friendly' stare and they will stop their nonsense immediately. hahaha.

with Samantha and Gerrick- The Mr.Macho in the making. I watched him grow up over the yrs and i'm glad that he has mature for the better :)

Inuka the polar bear. Her mum, Sheba, had passed away not too long ago. She still looks kinda sad n empty isnt it?

ber and i wanted to take a decent pic together but the lil kiddo had to come into the picture. hahaha. It's still a prettay shot =)

On the tram..chu chu chu.

Theres no doubt that elephant is her fav.animal afterall. Spot the resemblance?

Arhuh. how can we forget some spastic shots to spice things up. Here are 2 disoriented bunnies. Cute right? haha.

Maybe i should consider that job in the casino. ahhhaha. okie. JUST KIDDING.

charming vanessa and her panda that looked so real!

Mr.act cool.

okie... here comes the part that really burnt off all the calories we consumed from KFC! ber n i kinda strained our backs while pulling the rope to get this boat-like-tug-of-war thingy moving!! ahhh...The 3 kids had more strength than us. omg.

WEEE.. almost reaching! Hanging in there while the onlookers (parents n kids) were laughing at us. haha. UNGLAM.

Her fav.cable wire. I wonder why is it sucha a popular one among the kids? Hmmn. dun they feel uncomfortable sitting like that? lol.

At Ben and Jerrys with my gorgeous nieces and hunky nephew. haha. aww. this must be the 1st pic we have taken together after they have grown so much!

We were just in time for the elephant show. It was really entertaining but I wished it could lasts longer though.

i like this shot. The mountain goat looked really strong and empowering as though it was about to conquer a higher mountain.

i forgot their names but un these creatures cute??!! they look like soft toys~ haha.
Their way of showing affection. Scratching time!

Now comes the ferocious White Tigers! Ber n i have been looking forward to visit this enclosure. Still remember that man who got killed in this den? hmmn.

At Australian outback. Ohmy. darling..dun tell me we will really see them daily when we r over there next yr!

True to the metaphor..as proud as a peacock. It simply refused to pose for me. Now i have gotta leave you guys with it's perky ass.

idiotic ah tes says that she sees the resemblance among the THREE of us. -stares at kangeroo n roll eyes at her- HAHAHA.

I swear having 1-2 kids in future is sufficient for me. haha. It's really not easy! Now i can finally understand why every parent lament that it's a tough job to bring up a child. My experience with the 3 of them for a day is nothing compared to being responsible for them for the entire lifetime. It's all about duties, tlc (tender loving care), discipline and not forgetting fun.

alrite, i'm still suffering the aftermath of ystd. Backaches, muscle ache yada yada. Off to catch some wink. Feel free to leave your tags! :*)

2008-12-16T09:33:00.000-08:00

We are going to the zoo zoo zoo tmr. yes. with those cute lil kiddos aka my nieces and nephew. i hope i wun bore myself to death there.

Imagine me staring at the animals while they stare back at me.

how interesting.

It will only be v.fulfiling to see the kids enjoying themselves.

Since xmas is around the corner and i know they have always wanted to drop by the zoo again...

well, their lovely aunt shall be nice :P

Await our pics galore.

Just because i dun say it often, it doesnt mean i dun love you.

2008-12-14T07:29:00.000-08:00

Brrr.. it's sucha cold dayyy. I wrapped myself up with my comforter ala sushi-looking human. HAHA. The folks and i decided to dine out and steamboat is definitely the most apt under sucha weather. I brought them to these Shanghainese steamboat restuarant at Liang Seah Street which they have always wanted to try after listening to the way i advertise the food there. hehe.

Yummy! i am glad they love everything there especially the vegetable dumplings. It's just superb. We had a special duck soup base and the ma la spicy soup as an alternative. Theres a variety of choices and the people there are really accomodating as well.

The copycats or i always label them as 'neighbours' because they just dun abide to the photographer's (me) request to pose as a couple. -_-

with the resident's manager/butler/gardener/chef -ah tes
she has been with me for around 10 years?
i feel pretty attached to her and we can really talk nonsense, laugh at dirty jokes and entertain each other all day long esp. when the folks are out. haha.

Quote from my mummy "OMG...we look like Siamese twins!!!"

arhuh arhuh.

what a weird pair.

one look undernourished..the other is over-nourished.

hahahah!

This was only 1/2 of the food we ordered. hiak hiak.

what a SMALL EATER right?

more pics while waiting for the food to cook cook cook.

ah tes look really hungry...

And i swear this was super impromptu!

Trust my dad to have this thang for natural shots.

-faints-

somebody tries to act handsome again.

He keeps repeating to us in almost every shot that he looks good in it.

Now i know where my big-headedness came from.

LOL.

Taken by this charming guy from the next table who volunteered himself.

v.sweet and kind of him.

-heart skips a beat-

-eyes blink blink blink-

hahhaah

And i forced the whole family to pose this way.

As you can see, my mum looked really enthu to accomodate with me. haha

Good times :)

Hopefully they can always be so healthy and youthful at heart.

The Leongs.
mummy -"how come i can feel that i have an extra ear on my head?"

papa -"aiyah...nvm lah, look at ah tes, shes about to snap!!"

HMM..

we are all crazy vainpots indeed.

i like this picture =)

i shall let you guys decipher what the both of them were doing.

Hint: my dad's pose is more towards the 'obscene' side while as for my mum...

i'm still in the midst of guessing...haha.

Intricate oriental interior design..

the place was really crowded.

It's better to make a reservation in advance during the wkend.

We actually had our meals on the third floor instead as it was full house tonite.

woo..luckily we arrived slightly earlier.

Anw, I realised that taking pictures is one of the best ways to motivate me to blog.
As i grow up, i learn not to take my family for granted.

Cos no matter what happens, they nv fail to be there for me.

They forgive my wrongs and are geniunely proud of my achievements.

They are my shelter and i want to be strong enough to be theirs in future.

Although i dun say it often,

they always remain the top priority in my life.

As many problems and misunderstandings we encounter, kinship is def. irreplacable.

As cliche as it sounds,

i just want you all to know that i love you.

A lunch date

2008-12-13T01:37:00.001-08:00

-Drumsroll- "Hello everybody! i am LuLu, the latest addition to the Leong family :*)

i have a twin sister called DuDu Chua".

tu êtes spécial

2008-12-11T21:20:00.000-08:00

woohoo..the last few days have been a total blast! Despite the fact that i am extremely burnt out, i think we had a hell lot of fun :*)

Nothing beats having these few special peeps in my life. Love them to bits. It's been a while since we last met and after waiting n waiting...ntu n nus are finally done with their exams! haha. We catch up, we bitch, we do silly things together, we laugh at bimbotic moments, we discuss about our future, we reminisce the old times, we can't be thankful enough that we still have each other :)

The meet up with b1.love on tues finally materialised. haha. I missed everything about her. It's been a few mths since we last met. We had a porky dindin at cafe cartel in ps and then headed down to clarke quay to satisfy our sweet tooth. However, we didnt catch Riciotti's desserts in time and had to settle for tcc which was fairly okie.

We were way tooo busy cam-whoring and playing with the self-timer mode that we totally ignore the passer-bys staring at us. haha. come'on this is life. I will let the pics do the talking aight? Afterall, actions speak louder than words --> literally. HAHA.

"YES I DO I DO b1!" haha. OOPS. caught by the paparazzi.

New spokeperson for mopiko. Those mozzies really love me big time. Time to start learning from b1, i need a mini mopiko in my bag wherever i go! haha.

my Pweeetyyy banana :)

Still monkeying around when tcc was about to close already. HAHA.

GOSSIPGALS. haha.

Let's plan many more jiji mini scandals like that b1 :) it has been an awesome 3 years so far and despite only the occassional meet-ups; it nv gets boring with sucha perfect duo like us. haha.

" A friend is one who knows us but loves us anyway." -- Fr.Jerome Cummings.

brb in a jiffy to update on ystd's date with fairy n servant :) i can't do without any of you. hee.

This crazy lil thing called L.o.v.e

2008-12-09T19:08:00.000-08:00

credits: ahmetorhan 2006-2008 deviantart.com

They say love is kind, love is patient, love is the energy of the universe.
may i add that love is also blind, love is deaf.

All i need is space. why is it so difficult?
If you truly love a person, have the courage to let her go and find her true happiness.

What's the point of hanging on?

that's not love.

*i cant wait to meet b1 tonite.
hopefully i will be back with loads of pics. This blog's starting to collect dust already. soon ppl. await me. I hope i wun be too lazy or absent-minded with this task. I need to capture my pretty n hunky dearies.

In a glass bowl

2008-11-24T04:10:00.001-08:00

Haven't been updating regularly as promised. Oh well, i'm pretty fine except for certain hiccups here and there. I have been busy catching up and of cos burning a huge hole in the pocket.

Anyway, i am starting to feel a lil emo these days. I dun know what's wrong. Maybe I am too attached to the life here... i wonder if i'm just excited or paranoid about life in Melbourne?

I wanna visit The Southern Ridge and also take the Singapore Flyer soon. Any takers? haha.
I hope to finish up the things on hand first and stop procrastinating. I think i have my fair share
of fun over the past few wks. It's time I really settle down. REALLY.

After catching a few episodes of Life Transformers on Channel 8, I realised that i'm v. blessed. At this moment, I am well-provided for and I can't believe that
there are actually people in Singapore leading their lives in hell. It's simply unthinkable.

But then again, we derive diff.kinda joy under various circumstances. Material consumption is a channel I unconsciously use to fill up the void.

What a woman needs is the right amount of attention? perhaps.
i'm too drained to tell you more.

Things happen for a reason. no?

2008-11-13T06:06:00.001-08:00

I am gonna be very honest here.
I fear death.
For if i die at this very moment, i will def do so with regrets.
i think i have lied a thousand and one times about how i wish to die early.
It's really irresponsible of me to say so because i know that if this happens, it will rob a large part of some people's lives.

Sometimes I wonder, if men were meant to die, why do they live in the first place?

I can't imagine living without any of my loved ones.
You may think that i am too young to understand all these.
Instead, I should learn how to treasure what I have at the very moment before I lose it.
However, sometimes i wished i didn't own these things regardless of material or relationships, because if i dun own them, i wun lose them. right?
I remembered someone saying, "i am not afraid of losing anything. Since i come to this world with nothing, i will have nothing to lose even if i leave one day."
Ironically, thats what makes me human because i can't survive without any of these.

The news reported today on how a Malaysian construction worker was fatally attacked by 3 white tigers in the Singapore zoo. An accident? or it's just fated?

Just imagine how fragile life is.
As much as we are very aware of this fact, we often knowingly take others for granted.
Or worse, take our own lives for granted because we think that we have all the time in the world.
I wun deny that there are times i harbour on sucha thought.
Because i have the youth,
because i have what it takes,
because i THINK i wun die tmr,
i will always have the time to maximize my potential and make a difference.
BUT then again, what if i blindly walk into a lamp post and never wake up again.
You must be thinking that I am this paranoid silly fool who has nothing better to do but to think of such stuff.
Think again, it can happen to anyone and there are many ppl who die thru sucha so-called 'silly' manner.

I asked a friend how he wants to die.
He replied, i had rather think about How i want to live?
He feels that this shld be reflected on a daily basis.
His bottomline?
To make a difference to people's lives.

I tot it really made sense.
I often say that I wanna live my life to the fullest (cliche i know).
BUT, How am i gonna do so?
How are YOU gonna do so?

It's impossible to live everyday by repeatedly telling each and everyone of them how much they mean to me.
I think knowing how to love yourself is the best way to live.
Know what you want and go for it.
I will seize each moment and never allow any opportunity to slip past me.
It's also the best way to repay those who place me at the centre of their lives.

I guess it must be the weather that makes my mood exceptionally gloomy today. Perhaps, i really belong to the Romantic era. I have been thinking alot lately. Pardon me if i bore you with this entry.

with a cherry on top.

2008-11-09T01:18:00.000-08:00

updating in progress...
trying to gather my inspirations to account for my eventful wkend.
here r some shots just in case i am missed. haha.
anw, i know u've been trying to contact me since the beginning of this week.
to ans your queries: i'm not out of town; still alive and kicking.
yes, i forgot to tell you that i am on hols already.
i need time to think things through. thats all.

yearn

2008-11-04T20:52:00.000-08:00

Image Credits: Flickr.com by dhammza "Love is being stupid together"

Pure - by Fengzhi

Lie with me like the sudden death of uncertainty,
kiss me with a tongue that plays our symphony.
Churn me into that racing breath of desperation,
Devour gently like a starving man in hibernation.

2008-11-03T22:01:00.000-08:00

If you know me well, you shld be able to tell that I dun like to be told what to do. I dun like people to preach to me about God n all. i truly believe in his existence but i seriously dun need them to come knocking on my door n try to convert me into u-know-this-religion if not i will die tmr. blah blah blah.

And i dislike people who constantly drown in self-pity. If you really think that your life is that pathetic, simply do something about it. No one can help you unless YOU make the first move. I am really irritated by ppl who are healthy and abled yet they endlessly grumble about how unworthy their lives should be and they dun deserve the right to be called humans. How about those who are less fortunate? think about it.

LULU Liang

2008-11-03T21:11:00.000-08:00

It was a really last minute decision to meet-up with ben and tp. I was just rambling on n on about how everyone is unwilling to watch The Coffin with me and yada yada...n then tada, the 2 very nice and gentlemenly chaps (HAHA) decided to accompany me!

The show's isn't THAT scary but i will applaud the camera techniques used. The director employed the subjective shot in majority of the scenes and i think it was quite successful in achieving the mind-gripping effect for a few seconds. And need i mention that Ananda Everingham is a picture perfect? haha. But no, i was not attracted to the show because of him, i'm just intrigued by thai horror stories (yes, it's just me). Oh well, nothing beats Shutter really.

Over dinner we were brainstorming over an English name for me. The usual suspects made me laugh till i was on the verge of rolling on the floor. I could literally feel the strain in my cheek bones!

1.) Lulu Leong

#1 Scenario as a new caster: " Good evening, this is Channel News Asia today, this is Lulu Leong reporting from ..."

#2 Scenario as a PR: " Hi nice to meet you, my name's Lulu Leong. You can call me thriple L or Lulu Liang."

AHAHAHHAHAHHA. thanks to tp...you can imagine the kind of wtf (what the 'Fish Flower Flamingo') face i gave him.

Ben liked the name Cordelia Leong and tp was into Delaila. The names i gave sounded too porn-like to them (or so they say, since i'm really innocent n i dun know about such stuff) lalala.

However, the final verdict is...-drums roll-

Lulu Leong rhymes the best.

wth. PLEASE i beg u.. dun call me that or i promise to bite your head off.

Oh, and we forgot to camwhore...next time then. Anyway, i'm just one lucky bitch unlike some ppl who have morning and afternoon lessons the next day. haha. Chek Jawa trip next?

Any suggestions for a new serious English name that suits me..suits my face etc.?
(Leave out the common or pornish ones. thanks.)

This was written on 13/6/06

2008-11-02T12:50:00.000-08:00

He died - by Fengzhi

A dozen swords pierced through the struggling bait,
Choked up in puddles of oozing red, was the call for a silent break.
Jailed in a devoured heart that lost a once loving mind,
Endless gasps gradually drowned a passionate divine.

Black tears flooded Earth, heaven mourned for it's fallen angel.
Buried in the depths of pain left the grieving print of a shattered soul.
His expressionless skin was a portrait that she was never whole,
Adieu my love, she fell in his arms he couldn't hold.

A journey of choppy waves hid the awaken horizen from afar,
Captures of the past stained with a cracked smile dipped in flaw.
Jaded in the baggage of streaming sorrow,
Sealed in that unspoken tomb, Te Amo.

This piece was inspired by some personal experiences and also about the vulnerabilities in life. At the age of 19, i think i knew too much then. There were certain aspects in my life that were not within my control as much as i wished to believe that destiny was in my hands. I promised never to look back because those were just memories then. However, i took it up again today because i'm able to do so with a smile and realised that when you lose something, you really gain something in life. Sadly, life is a transaction and we can never have the best of both worlds. The best way to do yourself a favour is to learn to let go completely. For i will always remember what this special one said "Smile because today might just be your last."

This is just one of my original compositions. i would appreciate that you inform me in advance if you are using it :)

Innocence is really a bliss

2008-11-02T12:47:00.000-08:00

i was flipping through some pics, read some old entries...it's nostalgia u say but i realised that i'm not me anymore. It really scares me to witness how much i have changed over the past 4 years or so. The only constant is that I have been very well-loved all these while. However, there are some things which i wished could be undone. There are some people that i wished i had spent more time with because i will never ever get the chance to again.

It's been a year and 7mths but it still feels the same.
i still do miss you,
grandma.

Life is a contradiction. As i was telling tp, i do welcome changes but there are times i fear to move out of my comfort zone. oh well, live to learn he says. very true indeed.
i have learnt to accept changes because it's either you catch up with the pace of life or simply be eliminated.

"Our loved ones are the most accurate mirrors, they reflect the most unloving aspects of ourselves that we work to escape."

it's 4.36a.m now. i hear my bed calling out to me.
goodnite or rather goodmorning world.
brb.

goodbye hitchcock, hola to all!

2008-11-01T21:11:00.000-07:00

i am already smelling the sweetness of freedom.. yum. who doesn't love holidays?

well well, welcome to my new home! It's time i move on from the previous. i know it's the most cheesy and cliche way to start this new space, but i dun really care because it's MY blog. i will be responsible for my words but if you don't like it, simply don't read it :)

A word of caution, this lil space will definitely contain my daily rants, routines, narcissistic shots and whatsnot...but it will also include some of the poems that i have written b4 or perhaps potential ones in future. That's the best way to express myself --> thru ambiguity. haha.

i can't emphasize more on how time flies. i will be gone by mid-feb. it's a good test for me to be away from the sheltered life i have always been blessed with. i swear to come back a better person. i know i can do it.

Enough of Hitchcock and his Psycho, Marguerite Duras and her Lover from North China to whatever sea that has got a wall..haa. Just one more sem to my graduation; i can't wait to start work and enjoy the right to support myself. yeah.

Right now, i have a whole list of unfinished business. Gotta settle the transfer to on-campus (Monash-Gippsland), apply for internship, settle our online business, maybe renew my membership with Amore, continue my physio at sgh for my back prob, endless catch-ups with the important ppl yada yada.

i shopped my ass off at Orchard for 10 hours straight right after my exams ystd. wee. I applaud my stamina because i haven't slept a wink the night before. I just wanna let go and play hard now. haa. i am a country bumpkin who haven't sat the singapore flyer YET, i wanna try the fish spa, i wanna have more cycling trips to Chek Jawa and i wanna watch more MOVIES. i really need to get my social life back on track. haha.

1.) Madagascar 2
2.) The Coffin
3.) Twilight
etc...and more indie films pls...i'm a Picture House lover.

so here's an announcement: Peeps out there, i'm a bird out of the cage for now. Feel free to make your appointments/dates before i start to be busy n u lovelyones will most likely go like "AGAIN?" HAHA.

thats all for a start. a good start i hope. after mths of cracking my head, i figure that this will be the best way for you me to keep-in-touch when i'm over at the other hemisphere. do use my tagboard, i dun want it to be a white elephant. i will try to update this site regularly.. so be with me :)

p.s. do turn on ur speakers, this blog has music...i will change it occasionally.