Thursday, June 18, 2009
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
a moment of time
No number of people around me can fill up that space.
It's been around for 4 years?
i guess everyone deserves to be loved,
maybe not me.
maybe it's not the right time,
maybe it's not the right person,
maybe fate didn't factor this in,
maybe it's the circle of friends,
maybe i'm just not trying,
too many maybes.
i'm tired of listening to all these...
i'm really having the time of my life here in Melbourne, yet...
when will there be ( ) who will always be there for me.
i'm trying to learn to be contented. Learn to be emotionally independent.
i'm selfish. i fear that i will have to be on my own in future.
Dun be deceived by that confident facade,
if theres one thing that i fear most in this world; it's emptiness.
that abstract space that innocently sits in the corner,
yet it's deafening silence is enough to kill.
you must be thinking that i shouldn't be over-thinking stuff.
i agree. i dislike myslef for being like that too.
But i'm human.
i guess i'm my best source of consolation.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
dancing under the melbourne sky
I was really caught up with lots of daily activities minus the fact that i still have to cook, wash, pack and do grocery shopping (with alicia.darling of cos). We sound like housewives-to-be huh? Honestly, it hasn't been v.easy but it grants me a sense of satisfaction that I'm capable of surviving on my own as well.
I wanna dedicate a BIG THANK YOU to all of my dearest friendsss who turned up at the airpot to show some moral support. I miss each n everyone of you.
In no particular order:
Lynn, Joanne, Xin Lan, Yat Chun, Sua Cheo, Kingsley, Huey Shyan, Joyce.dear, Ber.fairy, Shin yi, Meizi, Tong Pui, Benedict, pq.dar, xue ting, Yin ting, Jennifer, gugu and last but most importantly my family!
sorry for being sucha crybaby at the departure hall..i guess i cldnt help it since im so attached to u guys. haa. oh well. do me the favour of taking good care of yourselves aight my lovely frens. I can't wait to be back in your arms again. haha.
Oh. I'm really touched by the farewell cards u guys wrote/ made and the presents such as the recipe bk from lan n joanne, notebk from meizi, postcard from shin yi and the ultra-prettyyyy BABY PINK GUESS WATCH! It was really a surprise. I'll def. wear it in remembrance of u guys. love it. <3
Meanwhile i'll turn in soon. I'll prob be back this wkend with all the pics that i have accumulated since my departure. im absolutely burnt out now and theres a FUN DAY OUT event tmr where we will be travelling to another campus. My heart's with you all wherever i am. :)
Friday, February 6, 2009
happymoomooyear
Our geeky-day-out. Haha. Thanks to b1's $2 specs from daiso...we had a hell lot of fun 'experimenting' it! Pardon us for the retarded-ness. lol.
checking her out. HAHHAA. There, stop imagining peeps. :P
It's been 3 years and counting. They say opposites attract and i'm really glad i've found you. Once again, b1, thank you for being sucha great friend all this while and accepting me for who i really am. :) With all honesty, I didn't expect this friendship to blossom over the yrs ever since our first meeting during the dfs days. Love ya! As promised, i'll be camping by msn n keep u updated with the latest juicy stuff. lol. Await your bday prezzie frm aussieland. <3>
Our lovely picnic at marina barrage...
We had home-made mayo-less sandwiches, doritos with salsa, fruit salad, cookies n 'heated-up' jolly shandy! mMMmm..yum yum yum :)
lynnlynnlynn, we r so gonna miss you loads!
DARLING this is specially DEDICATED to you. hahaha. It's suppose to be an artistic shot. (Hint: reflection)
when i look at this picture..this is what that comes into my head.
[L] is for the way you look at me,
[O] is for the only one I see,
[V] is very, very extraordinary
[E] is even more than anyone that you adore
This is what sisterhood is all about...i love my gfs! 'A' yo! This is our stylee. hahaha.
Alrite, next wk's gonna be fully pack again. :)
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Friday, January 16, 2009
dramamama wayang
1.) Daddy dearest was admitted to cgh last week and I decided to cancel all activities just to spend more time with him. I shall save you the details but thanks for your concern my friends. you know who you are. Hes doing well now.
2.) I'm also busy gan-chionging over the various paperwork (which i swear i so hate) to transfer to on-campus. Well, the clock's ticking faster than i realise and i'm exactly a month away from bidding sg gdbye. As much as I grumble and whineeee about how homesick i MAY become; i can no longer contain the excitement in me esp after attending the pre-departure briefing @ Furama Hotel. Everybody says it's gonna be FUN! really?
Sometimes i wish i had the superpower to fast track time to the end of 2009 so as to know what will become of me. Am i alone at this or do anyone share the same sentiments? lol.
- Will i enjoy life in Melbourne and adapt to the pace of their on-campus teaching?
- Will i be able to meet new people who will make a difference (+ve) in my life?
- Will i come back a better person after graduation?
- Will i get a good job in the PR line by then?
- Will i be able to live up to my own expectations?
- Will i settle down in the next 4-5 yrs to come?
- Will there only be a me; or theres a you too?
- and the list goes on.
oh well, theres so much to catch-up with all of you too. Tentatively for next wk, im bked for medical check-up for the student visa, b1-loving and a picnic with the 'sex in the city' Monash gang at Marina Barrage. haa. They shld know how this label evolved.
As you can tell, i'm too bored for my own good; but it gives me the much-needed space to reflect and do what i want.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Monday, January 5, 2009
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
adieu '08, HOLA 2009!
fz